When I get anxious, it makes me want to puke my guts out, gag non stop and just feel sick all day to the point of just wanting to stay at home and be in bed. 

I know it’s not the best thing ever but it’s something that I’ve dealt with like since middle school. 

I’ve had anxiety for a while now and I don’t really think much about it because once I begin to experience it makes me want to puke the whole day and I wouldn’t feel good. Everything is different once you’ve had a bad experience and could change what will happen in the future. And these things, for me, often happen for a reason.

For me my anxiety kicking in making me feel sick is often because of a bad nights sleep.

When I feel like I’m getting an anxiety attack I’ll just take a few deep breaths and try to rationalise what’s going on because things will feel better for me on the next day.

Anxiety can be a reaction to your stress, but it can also occur in people who have no obvious stressors. It’s brought by different things.

Most people don’t know exactly what brings on anxiety disorders. Some forms of mental illness are from a combination of things, including changes in your brain and environmental stress, and even your genes. The disorders can run in families and could be linked to faulty circuits in the brain that control fear and other emotions. Or anxiety can occur unexpectedly or can be brought on by a trigger, such as a feared object or situation.

Generalized anxiety disorder symptoms include:

  • Feeling restless or on-edge
  • Being easily tired
  • Having difficulty concentrating; mind going blank
  • Being irritable
  • Difficulty controlling feelings of worry
  • Having difficulty sleeping
  • Overthinking 
  • shortness of breath or gagging 
  • Feeling sick
  • Heart palpitations, a pounding heartbeat, or an accelerated heart rate
  • Trembling or shaking
  • Feelings of being out of control

Whenever I start to overthink or when I feel like I I’m stuck and I can’t change my situation, I’ll just stop whatever I’m doing and go to the gym for a quick boxing sesh and just distract myself from whatever is going on. Or I’ll stay home the whole day and record a video, sleep in or just do the basics of ignoring everything around me by turning off my phone and watching a movie on TV. 

Everyone has different ways to deal with things and I deal it my way. 

Having a mental health break isn’t a bad habit to develop. Like turning off your phone for a couple hours, reading a book and not checking thru Instagram, Facebook or twitter. I’ve tried it before and a few of my friends knew about it but not everyone knows about it. I do let my family know what I’m doing and they don’t really bother about it. 

There are days that I just want to not do anything being in bed and maybe eat nothing and just drink water for the whole day. And there are days that I can’t even sleep for over 24 hours and then the next day I have something to do and it’s like just crashing down on me again because apparently my body doesn’t want to cooperate with my brain. There are times when I try to do something and my anxiety just crashes on me making my hands shake constantly.

Anxiety hits me on different days and times. Sometimes it hits me more when I’m going to sleep or before I’m leaving to do things. Everyday it’s different. Some days it’s easier to just be yourself and do things without feeling sick.

End of the day you should just do whatever is right by your body. Don’t change what you’ve done for so long just because of something or someone that makes you feel bad about yourself. You do you and do what’s right by your body. 

-Jessica Soo Jung