I talk a lot about how taking a step out of your comfort zone sucks. But sometimes you do need someone to give you a little tiny push so that you can step out of your comfort zone and do something different. 

In this day and age you really don’t know when someone’s gonna pull the plug and hit the sack. Awesome… and it’s just gonna be like ‘poof’; We disappear without a trace. Youtube means I can tell my story. 

Sometimes I feel like starting my own channel on YouTube was both a good thing and a bad thing. But I feel like it’s OK, as maybe one day I might be old and have family that want to see what I did when I was younger. They can just go back and see what I did in my past because it is online now. 

You never know one day you might wake up and like forget everything that ever happened and to me that’s what scares me the most. The idea of waking up forgetting all that ever happened to me, or me suddenly passing away, it’s scary. I like the idea that my friends and my family can still go back and watch my videos and I’ve logged all that I’ve done online. Since everything is mostly online the good thing is you can go back and re-watch everything, like videos that you have with your friends or just random videos when you talk about life and cry you know. 

I have talked about a few key things in my YouTube videos. Things like me having ADHD and dyslexia, being Asian American, and also me feeling like the black sheep of the family I guess. 

Some days I feel like just recording everything that you can, but it means that I have to edit so much. Sometime I do fun things and I feel like I can do whatever I want and film everything, meaning I then want to try my best to edit as much as I can. However, editing takes a lot of effort as the thing is that I don’t video from a camera because my camera is not working so I video from my phone. 

Yes it will be so much easier if I want to video from my camera but you see my camera is not working and I don’t know how to fix it. I might get a new camera or maybe just get a GoPro and work with it. GoPro footage isn’t that bad it’s just the audio. So most likely I will just do voice overs or I will just have to insert subtitles into my videos. 

Why I actually took the step out of my comfort zone and started vlogging. I actually didn’t want to start blogging I was actually too chicken to do it but my friend suggested so just go fight you know. Anyway, what’s done is done, and now I don’t really want to stop or remove my videos as I have like 50 videos on my channel of me mostly just blogging random things. Things like me packing things me and buying things, or even just me speaking in Korean and I’ll be just getting ready. It’s very normal stuff. 

Sometimes you seriously need to actually put yourself out of your comfort zone, and for me what puts me out of my comfort zone is being in the public eye. I hate talking in front of people. I detest it. I hate it. I feel like I can’t do it and I feel like puking. I feel like fainting and I feel like if I could wish something to happen I wish I could turn into an ostrich so that I can stick my head into the floor or I would wish that the floor would open up and gobble me up. Okay I swear I didn’t make sense, which is like most of the time, I never make sense.

But now I make these videos, which helps me get over my fear of talking around people. Youtube helps me to be braver.

End of the day sometimes you have to do something new or different in your life to make yourself a better person. You have to do something different once in a while so that things are not the same all the time. That’s why I started YouTube. What can you do to try something different?

-Jessica Soo Jung